6 more months...It may seem short to others, but to me, its still so far away. I still remember the day i enlist. Enthusiastic and fresh, for i have come to the end of my unbearable long wait, believing strongly that what that has to come, must come. Telling myself nothing worst can go wrong. Im right, still one piece over here. just lost the original me with that vibrant smile on my face.
I have since met countless "ugly" faces during my army phase. Ugly not in the sense of unpleasant to look upon, rather in term of how people reveal their true color to you and only you, while still wearing a mask and faking a smile towards the others. They use you to get things done, while they just "act blur to live longer", they group up, sharing secrets, leaving you out, alright to be more precise, unless are things they don't wish to do, which they will always sabotage you in, they will most likely leave you out of every single benefits.
Sometimes, people may just say they treat you like brother so as to gain your trust in them, being more easy and rightful to use you, when they don't even mean it, they were just lying through their teeth. Silly people who believe suffer, when they don't even give a fcuk shit about them. People are selfish, even when they are not shag, that's such a disappointment.
You maybe hated by people when you simply did nothing. Its like what the hell is going on? You cant do anything for you are the only one who sees and feels it. They are just against you, for what reason, i don't know. Such circumstances, all you can do is just to swallow everything down yourself, bear with it and hope time will heal everything. However that doesn't always works. Sometimes the more you give in to them, the more they think you are there for them to throw their shit to, thus the more you suffer. They isolate you, make you feel inferior, lost. They got numbers, while you are alone.
They just turn on the light, drag the chair, speak loudly, ignoring your existence when they notice you have gone to bed by then, but do they even care? Answer, no. You are like transparent to them, that's why they are doing this. You don't have a reason to be sad, for they never treat you as friend, so can you. You may be alone, but a loner can do everything himself just fine. Just don't think of whats exactly happening around you, everything will be much more pleasant. People ignore you cos you are not their click of friend, so are they, thus don't bother to try befriend them. They just don't appreciate what you do.
I believe there's a lot of people facing situations whereby they cant voice to anyone, so i find blogging is a good way of releasing myself, if someone anyone of you guys who actually face similar problem as i do, don't be shy, feel free to voice it out to me, leave me a comment, i will be most glad to be your listening ear, share my opinions and thoughts with you guys and walk out as a better, happier person. Do like my post if you guys wants to show me support. Thanks.
Friday, March 30, 2012
my life so far
6 more months...It may seem short to others, but to me, its still so far away. I still remember the day i enlist. Enthusiastic and fresh, for i have come to the end of my unbearable long wait, believing strongly that what that has to come, must come. Telling myself nothing worst can go wrong. Im right, still one piece over here. just lost the original me with that vibrant smile on my face.
I have since met countless "ugly" faces during my army phase. Ugly not in the sense of unpleasant to look upon, rather in term of how people reveal their true color to you and only you, while still wearing a mask and faking a smile towards the others. They use you to get things done, while they just "act blur to live longer", they group up, sharing secrets, leaving you out, alright to be more precise, unless are things they don't wish to do, which they will always sabotage you in, they will most likely leave you out of every single benefits.
Sometimes, people may just say they treat you like brother so as to gain your trust in them, being more easy and rightful to use you, when they don't even mean it, they were just lying through their teeth. Silly people who believe suffer, when they don't even give a fcuk shit about them. People are selfish, even when they are not shag, that's such a disappointment.
You maybe hated by people when you simply did nothing. Its like what the hell is going on? You cant do anything for you are the only one who sees and feels it. They are just against you, for what reason, i don't know. Such circumstances, all you can do is just to swallow everything down yourself, bear with it and hope time will heal everything. However that doesn't always works. Sometimes the more you give in to them, the more they think you are there for them to throw their shit to, thus the more you suffer. They isolate you, make you feel inferior, lost. They got numbers, while you are alone.
They just turn on the light, drag the chair, speak loudly, ignoring your existence when they notice you have gone to bed by then, but do they even care? Answer, no. You are like transparent to them, that's why they are doing this. You don't have a reason to be sad, for they never treat you as friend, so can you. You may be alone, but a loner can do everything himself just fine. Just don't think of whats exactly happening around you, everything will be much more pleasant. People ignore you cos you are not their click of friend, so are they, thus don't bother to try befriend them. They just don't appreciate what you do.
I believe there's a lot of people facing situations whereby they cant voice to anyone, so i find blogging is a good way of releasing myself, if someone anyone of you guys who actually face similar problem as i do, don't be shy, feel free to voice it out to me, leave me a comment, i will be most glad to be your listening ear, share my opinions and thoughts with you guys and walk out as a better, happier person. Do like my post if you guys wants to show me support. Thanks.
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6 more months...It may seem short to others, but to me, its still so far away. I still remember the day i enlist. Enthusiastic and fresh, for i have come to the end of my unbearable long wait, believing strongly that what that has to come, must come. Telling myself nothing worst can go wrong. Im right, still one piece over here. just lost the original me with that vibrant smile on my face.
