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Friday, April 20, 2012
just a cosy saturday morning
 Hey guys I'm back at last being quite inactive recently cos I'm sort of losing faith in blogging. To begin with I'm hoping to earn some bucks as a blogger. Seem like its not as easy as it seems. So, here I am, I shall just blog. Blog Whats a blog? A place to write your thoughts A place where you share your findings with others Hmm... Is it all about that? Actually i find blog a place where people can understand me more I GUESS? At least for those who are interested to know me more.. Say, for example, At least its... A place where my girlfriend can know my inner thoughts more and friends who are willing to know me more I used to blog about my normal happening in life Some people did so too but i find its kinda boring doesn't it?! But blogging an interesting topic which will be able to attract readers do need some brain juice YEA So We deserve a clap don't we? Aww~ pardon me I'm getting lamer becoming more of a 9gagger style~ But it's just A COOLING cosy SATURDAY morning so just chill shall we? Currently I'm left with 4 months and 3 weeks to O R D what does that means? that means Happiness Freedom Laughter Joy Time MONEY!!! Though 4months are a long way but I can only just wait and wait and wait wait ... Alright I shall say something something on how i feel recently Life SUCKS! why? Cos' there's suckers Around you! and that's what happen to me... But cos of them we get to see those who meant a lot to us those who give us Support Courage Encouragement Strength At our weakest. they aren't angels they just care they are family they are your lover and i just wanna say thanks to these 3 women in my life. Mum Sister AND girlfriend you have given me strength to move on courage to stay on support for me to fall back and encouragement to S.M.I.L.E Like what I have once told a friend People who stay away from you are just cos they are not your clique of friends but same thing applies THEY ARE ALSO NOT YOUR CLIQUE OF FRIENDS So just I.G.N.O.R.E If ignoring you will be happier THEN WHY NOT? If HONESTY IS THE BEST POLICY Then i shall say IGNORANCE IS THE BEST WAY TO BE HAPPY s.m.i.l.e Cos you can for life goes on with or without them. Thanks Hope you enjoy what you are reading. If you do then feel free to L.I.K.E S.H.A.R.E C.O.M.M.E.N.T E.N.D Saturday, April 14, 2012
People nowadays
 Asking a favor from people is hard. Unless its someone you are at least familiar with, or its tougher than climbing up a mountain. I now understand how it feels. Though it may just be a few clicks, people still ignores. Its kinda sad.People have asked me to help them in a way or two, unless I never see their note, or i will be gladly to help. That's why i don't understand why. However, cos of this, it makes you see who are those who are worthy to be friend of. I'm not trying to say who's bad or who's wrong, it's kinda just differentiate who minimally are willing to help and who's not. People jolly well act blur, which i know, i can't help it but to accept the fact. It's the same as people on twitter. People follow, people unfollow. It's like, why do you even bother following if you are going to unfollow a day or a month after. We do things for a reason, but for them, i seriously don't see the reason why. There's a lot of selfish people out there. People probably follow me cos of some gush point, but unfollow after they got what they want. These people are fuckers seriously. To gain benefits, they waste my gush point. !@#$%^& Honestly speaking, i find that twitter is just a platform to tell people who you are. I used to think twitter is a media to share, but somehow it seems people use it in their own way. They only want to share but couldn't care much about what other tweet, i guess. I even saw some people tweet saying people use monetary means to get more followers, to get fame? when she herself create some contest giving out 1 pathetic camera, trying to draw more viewers to her blog through twitter. The camera she is giving out worth nothing more than 300 SGD, yet she claim to say it worth 600 SGD. Its just a scamming action, yet it works for her. Common forks, do anyone of you actually receive the camera? =.=!! Though she is able to prove that she got the camera, but that doesn't mean her giving it out as gift is true. Sometime its merely the pot calling the kettle black. I bet she never thought of herself when she shoot others in her tweet. Speaking of this, it makes me thought of what my girlfriend had said to me earlier on. Some girl happened to touch her hand by chance during some occasion and guess what she say after that?! She said, what the hell, why so suay sia~ and its the same girl who formed an anti club for her. I came to know about only now. Its like what have Singaporeans become of nowadays? First of all, its that girl who by chance touch my girlfriend 's hand, its not as though she want to touch you, hello~ have you look yourself in the mirror before you start commenting about others in a negative way? Have you? Guess not. Secondly, its just a hand, unless you tell me you haven hold another person 's hand before, a guy 's hand? or it should be quite normal for you to touch other 's hand. Whats more its by accident, and its a girl and another girl hand contact, common! Don't act as though my girlfriend hand is corrosive? Thirdly, the idea of starting an anti club for her just sucks, have you thought what will you feel if someone creates a club like what you create for her? We all have feelings, put yourself in others' shoe and you will feel how others may feel. My girlfriend don't deserve any of this treatment. She isn't a weirdo with some weird behavior, instead its your action which make you look alien. Keeping silent to all these, doesn't mean she deserve all these treatment. Its just that she is unsure of what she can do, so nothing was done on her part. I'm not trying to be some savior from some planet, but it really pain me to heard about her past. Though its being years since then, but I seriously feel an apologize is needed. You not only cause her fear, you make her lose confidence towards you guys. You guys are like beast towards her. It seem like this post is more of one for me to vent all my unhappiness and anger about my encountering so far, hope you guys don't find me annoying, cos its all heart felt words. To baby, I know words speak louder than words, but when i say i will protect you, i will always try my best to. Labels: emotions, life, People, reality Friday, April 13, 2012
all about me
 Things are done easily without stress. The same goes for blogging.I used to stress over what to blog, how to blog, trying to increase in my viewer count, but to no avail. "Whats the point of doing that?" "Is it worth my effort and time?" I got tired and eventually these are the questions which pop up in my mind. This scenario happens to me all the time. Maybe its just me. I still remember when I first started gaming, I was totally indulged in it. I even played nonstop for 22 hours before. How crazy is that? My secondary school teacher always praised me for my consistency in work, always giving my 100 percent in everything i do, and yea that is also why i often got myself stress up and exhausted eventually. Even a good point can have 2 different sides, it just depends on the different angle of how things are being seen. Generous sounds good, but in lame man's term, its just being spendthrift. When i try to slowly let go of the thing i worked so hard for so long, say game addiction, i feel sad and aimless. It makes me feel so crippled, like as though i have lost the aim in life. Sometimes, things are really easier said than done. The solution to my problem is just to always do my best and full stop, not necessarily do i need to always give in my 100 percent. But its not easy for me to do so for i will feel I'm doing a half fuck job. I guess this is the thing i need to learn in life. Giving my 100 percent may not always imply to thing being done perfectly too. It is just perfect in my eye. Then it makes perfect sense, i will feel satisfy if i do my best cos i will think the job has reached my standard, which is the same if i give in my 100 percent. Its all about reaching my own standards, expectations. My mum used to say i got high expectation in everything and it isn't going to do me good. I ignore her. Til now then i understand why. Sometimes in the midst of reaching my own expectations, i may hurt someone's feeling without realizing it. In the process, I can only see myself. I'm so full of myself, which i only get to realize that recently from a friend. When your close ones tell you that you are wrong, its always hard to digest it. Most of the time i will just flare up. I'm this childish, but i guess its time for me to grow up and admit what I'm wrong and be a better person. It always happen when people who are not as close to you yet telling you the same thing your close one once told you, then will you realize where your weakness and fault are. This is what happens to me. Its like an awkward for me writing to here. I'm not sure what I'm trying to say or portray, but its like somehow i got so much to say it out. Sometimes, it really feels a lot better if one just admit to every "sin" he has done. No holding back in his feeling. Yea folk, hope to see you guys in my next post. Labels: life, Me, meaning, thoughts Thursday, April 12, 2012
happy 22th month my girl
 Today its 14 April and its 10 days till our 22months anniversary.I can still remember how you silently entered my life and slowly stealing my heart away. We used to be two complete strangers, then become friends and slowly to lovers. I still remember when we just got together, you used to tease me asking, "why u always leave a gap between us when we took photos?" and i will always go, "er not sure, maybe its just me." then followed by an awkward silent. We didn't start off pretty well, there's misunderstanding between me and your mum initially. Tears Laughter Misses, are all part and parcel of love. With every fight and argument, we learn how much we meant each other. Soon, we start sharing secrets. Secrets even our friends were unsure of. We got closer and we starts to see each others' bad habits during normal life. We fart, burp, no more hiding, no more controlling, we got so used to each other already. Days by days, we got closer. Days by days i smell my freedom. Now its a 107 more days to my day of freedom, to the day i can be myself yet again. I will be awarded back my smile and my time. No more book-ins for me, no more rushing for time. It's being a long way since 13 sept 2010, 720 days counting down to 107 days. Uncertainty, fear, boredom, i experience all sort of emotions but nothing close to happiness in my early days though. However, you are always there for me. You make me feel your presence, feel your support, feel your warmth, feel your smile. Slowly, you starts to mean the world to me. You meant more than what Rice meant to Asians, what fish meant to kingfisher. My emotions affect you as much as how yours affect mine. Just wanna let you know that I love you as much as how much you love me Signing off with this picture,  which truly represent my heart to you.Labels: girlfriend, life, love, promise |
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